My love is you ;

The fact that I can't change at all....

2011-10-29T06:09:00.001-07:00

I don't know how should I comprehend every single thought I have in me into words. All I can say it's that the feeling in me now is helpless, lifeless & hopeless. Totally have no mood for anything. Forcing myself to accept a fact that I don't wish to is really killing.

No one knows how heartbroken am I at that very moment. I thought being good, being well-behaved & being hardworking is the only way to make the officers to think that I'm different from other clerks. I may be slacking most of the time. But when work comes, I've never turned anything down before. Everyone know it well. For all these that I've done, I don't ask for anything at all. Just hope that I can ORD peacefully & stay at where I am before.

Eversince that malay came into our branch's strength, everything seems like to change. Officers & mdms seems not to like him much & keepig a look out for new clerks. God knows why the fuck that choose me among everyone. -.-

I always thought that for those whom are bad will ended up in call-up branch & main branch would keep the good ones. But it seems like I'm wrong. The better you are, all the more call-up people would be eyeing on you.

I believe my mistake is that I've been too good to everyone in camp. That's why I'm ended up like this now. Serve me right.

To leave somewhere I've been trying to work hard on before, it's really unbearable. All my hard work for this branch, for the section has all gone to a wasted. I tried learning everything I have to learn asap & get my hands on things fast. Now I have to leave everything behind like as if I've never learnt anything up there & to learn new things which I've never like it before.

There's no motivation for me to report every single day. Everyday when I wake up, the very first thing I think of is book out, report sick, take off or leave just to absent from work. When I'm at main branch, I've never think of not going back camp or whatsoever. I won't feel that the world is ending.

Now the good life I used to have before are all gone. Nothing at all. I don't have the freedom I used to have, don't have the motivation I used to have, don't have the mood to do anything everyday.

This is really killing me. It's only the 3rd working day there at call-up branch, yet I have all these thoughts. You won't understand how vexed I am everyday. The work load I have to handle with it's pretty much more than I used to handle before. What's more, I'm not even willing to do it at all. Zz.

I really hope that DY would pull me back to main branch when the new clerks are posting in. It's better to start off with the bad then to start off with the good & ended up with the bad. But this is only a one-sided thinking. I guess the chances of coming back is as good as zero.

I really can't convince myself to accept everything. Even if it takes time to, I guess I'll never walk-out of all these thought I have now. Sigh. My body may be downstairs, but my soul will always be upstairs.

Tears are what the heart don't say....

2011-09-14T08:00:00.001-07:00

Sunday, 11th September
Was supposed to meet Christine & co. @ Dhoby Ghaut MRT Station @ 1:15pm for the movie, but I woke up late so I turn up at around 2 plus. Watched Smurf with them. Lol. It's my 1st time willingly to watch a movie, actually.. *Surprisingly*

After the movie, Tony, Kibbi, Jiaxin & I headed to get Tony's car. Kibbi & Jiaxin tagged along because they wanna give that stupid Chistine a surprise. Accompanied Tony to change his parking lot to Plaza Sing and also went into the mall to get Christine's brithday cake. This spoiled brat really know how to choose birthday cakes lo. Choose don't know what " Tiramisu" or something one. So expensive. Luckily it's chipped in one. If not the one gonna buy for her sure packet one hole. LOL. ;x

Got the cake ready & all of us headed back to Cathay for "dinner", I supposed? Had Teriyaki Chicken Chop with baked potato. The chicken chop wasn't as nice as I thought and seriously they have issues on servering customers lo!! What I ordered was Teriyaki Chicken Chop with two baked potato but it turns out to be two mashed potato. Funny crap. ;zzz.

Okay. Never mind about their service. After celebrating Christine's birthday, headed to 313 with Tony to get a top, while the rest went over to Far East for some shopping. Met up with them after getting my tee. Both Kibbi & Christine went to do some medicure and after that went home. ^-^v

Monday, 12th September & Tuesday 13th September
As for today, there's nothing much to talk about other than in camp. Morning went for the Healthy Life Programme with the rest & we played badminton, as usual. Aftermath, headed to shower & prepare for work.

Suddenly Shawn need someone to take over his IDOC's duty because he went to report sick. So I took over for his duty. Nothing much happen, untill the next morning. I shall not eleborate anything here, because it's related to the camp. So if anyone wanna know, ask me personally. ^-^ I may tell you, if I want to. :D

Wednesday, 14th September
Well... As for today! Nothing much actually. Went for house visiting & that's all for the day. Seriously because of that incident, I really have no mood for anything. Just wanna tell you, fuck you seriously. Get the facts right before fucking someone. Don't think having a high position, you can treat your man in this manner. I don't owe that place a living, neither do I owe you a living. If you don't show me respect, than shut the fuck up and stop begging it from me. -.-

Once you get what you want, you’ve got something to lose...

2011-09-10T07:13:00.000-07:00

Hehehehe. Today will be my very 1st post of this month, after a long time of MIA.

Well. Today was quite happening. Went out with Rachel, Zann & Xian to the Warehouse sales @ Tai Seng for Charles & Keith sales. It was around 1 plus when we reached the warehouse sales. It was quite packed there & this is my 1st time going to this kind of warehouse sales for shopping! LOL. Abit kiasu, I know. >.<"

Saw a few shoes that are nice, buy I did not buy because it looks too matured for me & I think there's not much sizes left. =\ After 3 hours of shopping in there, Rachel & I didn't find anything that we like. :[ Like kinda wasted trip. But both of us for a "free" gift from Charles & Keith. LOL. I shall not say it there. ;x

Aftermath, Zann & I cabbed over to Kovan to meet up with Denise & Anna for my Windows7 disc while Rachel & Xian head over to Bugis to collect somethings. While waiting for Denise & Anna, Zann & I went into Heartland Kovan for some shopping as well. Bought some OCK for "lunch" as I did not eat for the whole freaking day. T.T

After collecting, trained over to Bugis to meet up with Rachel again. Shop around in Topman & saw some tops that are nice. But still! I did not buy. :( Because after buying graphic card, I'm quite broke also. Omg lo. So tempting!! Anyway I bought a grey long sleeve top from G2000. Quite reasonable price anyway, cos I have staff discount!! Hehehehehe. ^.- !

Okay. After shopping finish @ Topshop, went opersite Bugis to have dinner there. Fried Chicken Noodles ye! After eating headed home. Argh!! My legs are very numb now! After long hours of standing. :[ Shall rest early today since I'm going out again tomorrow. D; But I'm kinda excited for my graphic card to install & upgrading my Windows7! LOL. I wanna tag hearts & Fam battle!!!!! ;@

You're all I ever asked for...

2011-05-08T14:56:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you're a good person & a good friend. What's meant to be will end up good & what's not, won't. Love is worth fighting for but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you just have to move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around & don't lose something real. Always fight, until you can't anymore, & then be fought for.

I wonder.....

2011-05-05T13:25:00.001-07:00

I don't know why am I still pinning hopes that you'll regret on what you've done to me. Why you can just forget about our brotherhood like it's nothing to you at all? Do I really meant that little to you in your heart?

Always telling me that I'm the best brother you've met. Always saying that I'm the only one who give you the care and everything to you. But what is it now? Aren't we like strongers?

You don't even bother talking to me about my changes at all. Just wanna walk away from me without saying a word. Is this how brother's are like? Why you can forgive whatever she've done to you, yet you can't accept a little changes in me?

I seriously feel that it's unfair for me. You didn't even spare me a chance to explain myself to you or giving me time to change. Are we going to continue cold-waring each another like this? If we are, I wonder how long can both of us last our relationship. I really wonder......

Words can't express what the tears says........

2011-05-01T13:43:00.001-07:00

For this one month that I'm on mc, I practically didn't sleep well at all, for each and every night. What is it that I'm thinking up in my mind, I have no idea.

Always asking myself the same question. ' Why did I changed? What happen to me? ' This is what I always ask myself each and every night. Because of this, I've lost a number of close friends.

Thinking back, the previous me was a happy and easy going person. What I wanna do, I'll never regret doing it. But about now, I kept hesitate & dare not to do things on my own anymore. What is this?

The feeling of having so much to say & yet words can't express every single feel of me really feels horrible. How I wish everything didn't changed. But now..........

It's already one week....

2011-05-01T05:44:00.001-07:00

Yesterday went out to Plaza Sing to meet up with Rick, Yu Xiang, Twin, Timothy & William @ Jcube to try out the coms there & to meet Yu Xiang's Audition couple. Met Anna & Denise there as well. Wa, both their hair like long only. ;x LOL.

After before trying out the coms, went into Plaza Sing to have lunch @ Kopitiam. Aftermath, back to cube to try out the coms. Met Rara there as well. The coms there nothing to say la. Ji lan yi xia loh! Wonder why Asiasoft choose to the event to be @ cube sia. Really have some issues in their brains.

Well knowing that cube's com is cmi to the max, yet they still held the event there. With no doubts, there's sure alot of sore losers complaining the coms there one, on that day we shall see. *winks*

Kay. Back to topic. After trying out the coms, headed to Cine for a movie. Movie was quite entertaining. But the sound effect keep ' chua tio ' me, which I madly don't like. Twin & Rick kept laughing at me for that. =\

Movie ended, went down to find something to eat. But everywhere was mad packed. So we walked over to the Street Hawker, near OG Point for dinner. Stingray & Kang Kong is (Y)! Yay. Heh.

After dinner, slacked at cube for awhile & after that went home! Reached home jitao is cmi with my com frames already. Sigh. I wonder what should I do with my com. It's like no matter how much I'm spending on it, it's still not the speed that I wanted. I don't know what should I improve on next.....

How much do I really meant to you that I'd never know, just as you'd never know that how much you really meant to me...

What's the problem with you......

2011-04-28T11:21:00.001-07:00

Just what the hell did I do that I deserved to be treated in this way? I don't remember I did anything wrong towards you at all. So what the fuck is wrong with you now?

Without any reason being, & yet you're showing me all this shit? Just one word from you saying that I've changed, so you're going to treat me like this?

Yes, I've changed. But so what if I've changed? Doesn't mean I've changed, I'll forget you, I'll treat you differently. Just because you don't like the new changes in me, you're going to stop talking to me & don't wanna contact me anymore? Is this what you want now?

You know it hurts me alot when you said all this to me? You're the one whom always said that I'm your best brother. And now what am I to you? A piece of rubbish? Throw me away as and when you don't like me?

When you needed someone there to talk to, have I ever turn you away? No, I didn't. No matter how much I'm not interest at it or am I busy or not, I'll still lend you my ears.

But what about you? Are you there when I need someone to talk to? Think again before you talk. If this time you're going to give me up, I'm going to tell you...... This is going to be the last time I'm holding on to you. Once you draw the line, it's the end of me & you.

2011-04-03T01:07:00.001-07:00

Nothing much. Happy Birthday to my Ah Gong! :D

2011-04-02T01:48:00.001-07:00

Time pass so fast. Now it's already April, and it's coming to the end of my BMT face. Next week will be POP week. Guess there's nothing much for me to do. ;sigh!

Nothing much to blog about. Later will be going for dinner with my family to celebrate my grandfather's birthday! Hee. Will update again later on. :D

2011-03-29T12:23:00.001-07:00

Oops! Sorry to neglecting my blog for the few days. Reason being was because I don't know what can I blog about. x.x Didn't really went out at all, execpt for Saturday.

Went to replace a new sim card from Singtel, cos I've lost my phone one week back. Lol. Aftermath, met Qianwen, Junhui & twin for dinner. Then went home after that.

Seriously speaking, its fucking irritating to have that cast on my left leg now. I can't do whatever I want. Even to bath, I'm also having a problem. Fuck this fracture of mine man. Making my life troublesome only. Zzz.

Well, that's all for the day ba. Will update again soon! :D

2011-03-25T05:23:00.000-07:00

Sigh. This few days sucks to the max. I don't know why, but my Audition skills like back to the old me again. -.- At first I thought after I've enlisted, my skills had gone better. But this week, I don't see myself the same anymore. Like what the fuck am I doing man. Zz.

Anyway, just lvled to 59. Haha. -.-

2011-03-24T06:42:00.000-07:00

Well, yesterday went back to camp to endorse my mc. Took the 12:30pm ferry & reached the medical center @ about 1pm. Waited for like 4 hours plus like an idoit, finally my mc was approved. For god sake. -.-

Aftermath, went back to my company line to packed my stuff & clear somethings with my pc & ps. Sigh. Sad to hear that I might not be able to attend my passing out parade. T_T Because of my fractured foot, I can't march 16km & 24km route march that's why I can't be in the parade. D: I pushed through thick & thin just to see myself @ the Marina Stadium for my passing out. Now this kind of thing happen to me. Zz. I guess I've disappoint some of my family members, esp my grandfather. ):

After that, took the ferry back to SAF Terminal to meet my sister. On the way back, I felt that I'm like some kind of animal or something. Everyone was looking at me in a different way. Quite a number of them wanted to help me to carry my stuff but I rejected. Well, I guess this is the best part for those who can't walk properly. Haha.

Met my sister & decided to go home. Awhile we were having our own conversation, there this man was being kind enough to offer me to send me home, if I want. Kinda man hur. At first we thought this person was weird. Don't even know him at all, still offer to send us home. Sure got something up in his sleeve. But he was very helpful & even helped me to show my mc to the guard & drove his car over & asked us to hop on.

Was damn paiseh la. Hopped on then he send both of us back home til our block downstairs. During the car journey, I over-heard him on the phone to cancel his meeting with his friend just to send us home. This kind of people is like " Jue Zhong " already lor! Where else can you find such a nice person? Lucky me! :B

Reached home & I have nothing to do. So I decided to make blogskin. While making, I had the arge to blog. Lol. So here's my new blog! :D Hope everyone will like it & come support more often, even if I didn't post anything or my english sucks like @$#!@.

As for today, what else can I say other then boring? :\ I'm alone with my sister at home for the whole day. Playing Audition & my sister went for interview. Mad bored. Drained some cbp & tagged some hearts with Jasmine. Thanks alot! :3

Sigh! How am I gonna spend my 2 weeks like this with my pig leg?! ): Wanna go out also must think twice. Hate this shit. Zz.

2011-03-23T11:39:00.001-07:00

All I really want is someone that’s gonna keep their promises, listen to me babbling or enjoy a comfortable silence with, someone to call when I get scared, someone to laugh at my mistakes, and someone to grab me when I walk away. Is that too much to ask for?

2010-09-20T22:24:00.000-07:00

Even if you treat people kindly and honestly, most of them will still hate you for some reason and you can’t complain.

2010-09-17T12:07:00.000-07:00

2010-09-14T22:56:00.001-07:00

You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart for feelings you don't want to feel.

2010-08-12T07:42:00.001-07:00

Teehee! Finally got time to blog, after such a long MIA period from here.

Didn't really enjoyed my day during NDP, because my mood was spoiled by some asshole at home, before leaving house. Actually wanted to meet twin & co @ Cube, before meeting QH & the rest @ Marina Sqaure. But ended up not meeting twin, because of some reasons. -.-

Then headed to Marina Square straight, to meet QH & the rest. Yay! Finally met Michelle after 1 year, I think? LOLOL. Miss her so much. Met @ Marina Square's foodcourt & had pasta there. I realised that I've been eating pasta for this few days. But it's nice nice!

After eating, went over to buy yammy then back to Marina again. Didn't really see the fireworks, because it's fully packed! And oh! Guess who else I saw there! I saw Steprene! That monkey bitch! Wtf. So sway lor. And just nice, after National Day it's Hungry Ghost Festival too! I guess that's the reason why I'll see her ba. x.x

After fireworks, went to chill for awhile & went back home.....

Some picture's for the day.

Hmmmm.. About 2 weeks back, was both Bianca & Zann's birthday on 31st July! Wanted to celebrate with the both of them, but didn't know that their celebration day clashed on the same day. So instead, I went to Bianca's celebration. Ps wor, zanny! So my ex-classmates decided to celebrate it on 1st August @ Holland V, Swensen. Lol. Out of so many places, they choose Holland V. Abit the.. Weird.. D:

Headed to Holland V with QY, and met the rest @ the underblock. After that went over to Swensen to meet with Eliz and her bf. Chilled for awhile. & Bianca came! She was late, as usual. Lol. Placed our order & waited to be served. Had Chicken & Mushroom Spagetti. It was nice, but the serving was very little only.

Was the 1st to finish. Hahaha. Waited for the rest to finsh & here comes the cake! The cake was nice too. It's my fav ice cream cake oh! Somemore with chocolate de ye! After everything, headed home straight, because the next day have to work.

Some picture's for the day. Didn't managed to take picture's because I didn't bring my camara along. ;o

2010-08-03T14:01:00.001-07:00

Hello! Sorry for not updating for this 3 days. Lol. Didn't know what to update, so didn't intend to blog anything. > <

Well.. I just came back from work, not long ago. Today's afternoon shift is totally hell for me! ;arg! Countless stocks to open, by myself. And plainty of Overall Consolidation's items to find & stock out to. I'm now mad tired..

But to see the time now, it's 4:52AM. LOL. Guess why am I still up at this hour!? Actually wanted to maple for the whole night, but fucking computer of mine kept hanging every 6% I gained. -.- Fml! Then I was mad bored, so I went to youtube and watch somethings that are so called "stupid". ;hoho!

Don't think dirty. I'm not watching what you're thinking. HAHAHA! Was looking for videos on how to style my hair. LOLOL! I know it's kinda dumb, weird & vain of me. But I seriously wanna know how to style my hair properly! ;sob!

I seriuosly don't know how to style hair. I just kinda anyhow pick & pull my hair to get the hairstyle I got, every single day. :\ Well, by watching those videos, it really makes me feel like styling one of the style in that video. Shall show you. ;smil!

Ji shuai yi xia! :[ But I really don't know how to style it. ;sob! Somemore my hair so much shorter. ;cry! I shall try it out myself during my off day! ;roar!

2010-07-30T07:45:00.000-07:00

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect, you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can.

She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there..

Life is boring when your hobby is not there for you. Audition has been maintenancing since 29th July till now. I'm mad bored for my 2 off days!

Yesterday I was mad crazy. Went to buy x2 exp for maple. LOL. Played maple for the whole night, untill 4:30AM then went off to bed. O;

Today woke up at 11AM and played maple for awhile. Aftermath, went to preapre and went to Commonwealth to have my hair cut. After hair-cut, my cute twinnie says wanna meet me. ;shy! So went home and get changed up and headed to Dhoby Ghaut to meet him. S-O-C-U-T-E! ;luv!

Met him for lunch & slacked awhile at Jcube. Was mad bored, because Audition still fucking maintenancing. -.- Went shop shop around with him. And after that went home. ;smil!

2010-07-28T09:29:00.000-07:00

‎"You're one in a million". There are 6 billion people on the planet. Means there's 6000 people are just like you. I can easily meet them in my life. Do you still feel you're that special?

Hi! I'm back from work. The time now its 12:38AM. Today had a full shift! I'm currently mad tired! :[ Luckily tomorrow its me rest day, untill next week! Hee! But only work 2 days for this whole week. :\

Today when I woke up from bed, I had a slight headache. Actually didn't felt like going to work.. But to think that I'm holding a full shift today, I doubt there's any kind souls out there are willing to cover up my shift. So I managed to pull myself up from my bed & went off to work.

During the journey to work, I felt like vomitting also. x.x The feeling sucks to the max, I swear! Guess its due to not having enough sleep & food, that's why it happened..

Reached Great World & surprised that my 2nd incharge was mad earlier then me! I reached at 10AM, & she's already there sleeping, while waiting. Made me not having a good breakfast & enough time to eat. -.-

Well, today is my 2nd day working with her. Yesterday was my 1st time meeting her & I covered a morning shift for her, when I was only a half morning. Because she said her eletricity had been cut off or something, & she have to go and settle it. (Bad impression)

Then as for today, she act sick like one jubo like that. Feel like slapping her face. Instead of both of us on the selling floor, she's in the storeroom sleeping happily. -.- To think that she's the 2nd incharge! I think I can do even better then her lor. D;

And my 1st incharge came over to cover her full shift (So good), and she just went home like that. She lucky only lor! Like that pua stun only can go home early & get pay like that. Thick skin bitch. ;boo! Me and my incharge was like mad cursing & swearing about her. ;hoho!

Sales was okay for today. Managed to closed 1.5k today. ;smil! Okay. I'm done with my long winded post. Thanks for reading. Goodnight! ;mua!

2010-07-27T08:12:00.000-07:00

2010-06-28T10:58:00.000-07:00

一寸光阴一寸金，寸金难买寸光阴.
" Never take someone for granted. Hold every person that matters to you close to your heart, because one day you might wake up and realise that you've lost a diamond while you were too busy collecting stones. "

2010-06-27T09:20:00.001-07:00

Well, today was kinda up and downs mood for me. At a moment I can be very high with QH, at the other, I'm kinda troubled and pissed off with. About what, I also don't know. Maybe it's about Y O U.

Woke up at 10am in the morning, prepared myself and met up with QH to Commonwealth for my hair rebonding. Lucky we went there earlier, if not I think we've got to wait very long. Lol.

After rebonding my hair, headed to Serangoon's Venus. Went there for lunch as well and after that lan gaming all the way. Left the place at about 8plus and headed home. I don't know why am I feeling tired whenever I leave Venus. -.- Maybe it's because it's very boring there and the place was dark. Ha-ha-ha!

Happy Birthday Cashper Shim Per Per!
After what had happen, we drifted alot. But even if so, I still wanna thank you for giving me a wonderful 1month of happiness, though we did not meet in real life. But I'm still very happy and satisfied with.

Nothing meant to last forever, forever doesn't exist. Even if those things did not happen, we'll still end up to this state in some other days as well. Since what's done can't be undone anymore, we shall not think about the unhappy past and hoping for a better tomorrow ahead. Cherish what you have now and don't ever regret about it.

Anyway, hope you had a great time celebrating your birthday with your family and friends. And of course, always hoping to meet you.

2010-06-24T10:47:00.000-07:00

Went for work in the morning and was almost late! LOL. Luckily I took MRT, if not there won't be enough time for me to buy my $2.50 meal!

Today on the way to work, I bump into Sarah Lim and my Hot Auntie! 好巧哦!

Working untill 2pm and after that headed home straight. Was feeling tired on the bus already.. I almost dozed off! But in the end I still went over to Commonwealth to buy lunch to eat! Heehee! Bought Liang Tou Fu and after that went home.

Actually I wanted to sleep right after eating one. But in the end I still ended up playing the computer. D: Tired dai me! Played maple awhile and I'm @ Lv29 already oh! 1 more lvl only to 2nd Job. Ji happy yi xia.

Sian! Tomorrow will be afternoon shift.. x.x I'd rather they put me morning shift then afternoon lor. I hate closing shop so late. Furthermore, sales are bad this few days. Sure gonna close fucking late one lor. Nbcb.

凡事要看开一点, 日子也会过得好一点..

2010-06-22T13:14:00.002-07:00

Overdued picture's.

No one can promise that they'll never hurt you, because at one time or another, it will happen. The real promise is that, sometimes the memories left to reminiscence are worth the pain.

2010-06-21T08:33:00.001-07:00

Sorry for leaving this place dead again! I seriously don't know what to blog about without having anything on everyday. Everyday I kept thinking of what should I post here. But I end up not blogging, because nothing much to blog about. I'm doing the same things every single day.. What a boring life I have right?

Why are the words goodbye, I'm sorry, & I love you so easily pronounced, but so hard to say?

2010-06-17T12:40:00.001-07:00

Decided to public my blog again. As I've edited myself a new blogskin. Heehee! Took quite long to edit this. What the poop! Nothing much about today. Went for work in the morning. Sigh! Actually today I'm not on shift at all, yet I still have to cover up somebody's shift.

Well..... After work headed home straight-away and had Spagettie for lunch today. ! I made them myself while buying Fam Channel. ! Feel like going cube tomorrow. Should I go? :(

2010-06-17T05:00:00.000-07:00

你曾说过不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不需靠宽容就能够解脱

我以为我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你已对他不在期待
不纵容他再给你伤害

我以为我的温柔能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口
真心陪在你左右你不怕一切的错
也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生

我以为终究你会慢慢明白
他的心已不在你身上
我的关心你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为

我以为我的温柔能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口
真心陪在你左右你不怕一切的错
也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁
我以为我够坚强却一天天的失望
少给我一点希望希望就不是奢望

2010-05-03T09:00:00.001-07:00

I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand,
so now I leave without a sound except my heart shattering as it hits the ground......

2010-04-22T11:23:00.001-07:00

Why am I always at the loss? Why am I always the one giving in? Why am I always the one being left out after all that had happened? Why things would turns out like that? Why can't things goes the way I want it to be? Why am I missing you, even after so long. Why do I still love you, even when we don't contact anymore?

Anybody can tell me why? Being lonely doesn't seems to help much. I missed those days that I have someone who accompany me with a message or when I'm online, there's someone there for me to go to.

But right now, everything have changed. You don't belong to me anymore. You don't message me anymore. You don't need me anymore. I'm not the one in your heart anymore.

Move on is what I always hear from others. But who can help me move on? I also wished that I could move on easily, like how other could. But I just don't know why whenever I wanna push myself to do so, every single memories of you flashed back to me.

How I wished time could turn back to where we were before & if only there's more then 24hours in a day..........

Sorry, but I seriously miss you very much.

2010-04-19T14:37:00.000-07:00

FAM Outting on saturday was fun! A mixed of Trademark, Rename & Project D members. Went cube & after that headed to Cathey for movie.

Actually was supposed to watch Ju-On. But there's only 1 timing which everyone couldn't make it. So eventually, we went to watch Date Night. LOL. This movie very funny.

After movie, went to Plaza Sing & had dinner there @ the FoodCourt. Cam-Whore like mad! LOL. Then slacked untill around 11plus? :D

Looking forward for more outing! Anybody gonna plan? Don't eveytime I plan leh D: ! And I took 3hours to edit & upload those picture's. -.-

Picture's of the day:

2010-04-13T10:22:00.001-07:00

Just came back from stock-take @ my work place. I swear stock-taking sucks okay! The moment I reached, I started doing everything. Had no mood to serve any customers that comes in or whatever.

Anyway, I'm tired now. Tomorrow still have to wake up at 6am and relief @ Yishun. Tired dai me lor! Nothing much to update about. Shall post again soon! <3 Goodnight, wan an! :D

2010-04-11T09:54:00.000-07:00

Overdued.

Okay. No more emo post le. What's done, it can't be undone. Anyway, thanks for those happy moments you gave me once before. :D

During the afternoon, went down to Jcube alone, to meet Sy and friends. Lol. Quite alot of people were there too, untill I can't use the comp I always use! :[ Play for awhile, wanted to fb, but I had no form! No chain, no nothing!

Left Jcube at about 5plus and headed home. Reached home and waited for my uncle to come and fetch me and my family to the resturant @ Redhill, I think? Went there to celebrate my grandfather's birthday oh! Lol. Sat my uncle's lorry really was a regret. Was sitting behind the lorry and the stupid wind was so heavy that it blow my hair untill so flat down. ( - . - )

Reached the resturant, my face was like.... Why is the resturant so laoya one? I thought it's those very high class one. But.... Anyway I'm not the one paying, so I shouldn't expect so much.

Well, the food there was alright to say. Just that their service should really improve. When my aunt asked for 2 cup of coke, 1 with ice, 1 without. And you know what the waitress hear as?
Waitress: 一杯Coke要冷的, 一杯要熱的啊?
Me: Coke 有熱的meh? ( - . - )

Damn funny lor. When I said that to that auntie, everybody went quiet. LOL. Jitao is don't know what to say lor. Wtf? I 1st time heard of coke got hot one sia. LOLOL.

Okay. These were the dish we had there. Pardon me for having such lousy picture's, because all of them were taken by my no skills sister. -.-

This was our 1st dish. Lol. I only ate the egg. Because the rest were pork or some sea jelly or whatever.

2nd was Sharkfin Soup. Nicenice!

3rd. This was one of my fav dish! Damn nice okay! I don't mind eating it everyday. LOLOL! :x

4th. Lucky it's chicken. If it's pork, my face sure ( - . - )

5th. Not bad. Still can make it. Lol. ;x

6th. This one, I ate most of the mushroom! It's nice okay! 5 star for this!

7th. Omg, this one good good! My fav also!

Ya.. Still have 2 more, but never took picture of it, because I didn't eat it. x.x And you know total cost how much ma? I heard from my father, he said it's around $700 plus. Wtf okay. It's my 2 months pay lor.

After everything ended, it's around 9plus and went home by lorry again. Zzz. Headed home and QH called me. So asked her to come over my house and ton. LOL. Abit the random hor? ;haha! But still we had alot of funny chats. Don't know why whenever I'm with her, I never fail to laugh like $@!$#$@!$#@! 真的很 auntie ye! LOLOL.

Some picture's taken too!

This is my short mother. LOLOLOL.

This is the cousin I said he looks abit like me, when I was little. Ke ai right!

My ccb sister. LOL!

And.. My short family!

Really very chao lao meh, my face?

As for today, it's kinda boring for me. Woke up early in the morning about 9plus, I think? Thanks to QH talking loudly in my room, that woke me up so early! Waited for her to prepare and stuff, because she needs to go to TTS hospital to visit her grandmother. > < After that went back to sleep! Woke up at about 2pm by QH again. She came back to collect her things and went home.

Then I went to wash up and played Audition! Around 7plus, my father came to fetch me and my sister to Holland to have dinner. QH tagged along as well. LOL. Keep say she shy. Shy ke pi ah! LOL. Si auntie! Crab and stingray is my love lor! Ji hao chi yi xia!

Tomorrow working half-morning again. Then Tuesday having stock take. Wtf lor. Giordano seriously have nothing better to do, but to KA our money and working hours.

2010-04-07T11:29:00.001-07:00

I'm not sad for it's over, but glad that it once belonged to me.
The hurt that you left beind in me, made me cried a river & build a bridge, so I could get over with it.

Moving on seems to be simple, but it's what you left behind that made it so difficult to.
I know I've said goodbye so many times before, but all roads leads me back to you.

Well.. As for now..
Seeing you living well enough without me around, there's nothing much more for me to expect, I suppose..

2010-04-02T06:05:00.000-07:00

幸福看起来哪麽简单, 眼看就要有了,
为什麽突然间, 变得那麽邀不可及呢?

2010-04-01T10:16:00.001-07:00

放了爱。你会明白有种拥有，叫作放手。。

Feeling damn stressed now even though there are no exams/coursework/homework etc. I'm sick and tired of this life. I feel very lonely. I've so much to say but no idea where to start. Just very.... depressing. I don't have anything to look forward to except Audition and going with friends. Totally no life! The outside world is tearing me apart. Only some of my friends and my families supported me and stand by me all the way. Sometimes I really feel like crying and fucking complained every sorrows but I always swallow down the big lump in my throat and be a strong boy infront of everyone else, including my parents. Because I know I'm gonna be a big boy now. I seldom go out & rotting myself at home, every single day...

I don't know what I want. I don't know why am I being so paranoid and depressing. I miss my slacking days. I miss happy days. I hate the outside world. It's like I went home everyday just to lick my wounds and I have to get hurt the next following day.

I'm really trying to be optimistic towards my life and everything. But can someone teach me how to stay optimistic always and be a happy-go-lucky person? I promised there will not be anymore emosxzs post after this. Everything will goes to my only journal.

I told you I'm an independent boy but I think I lied. Because actually I'm still a child at heart who gets hurt easily by the outside world. You'll teach me how to be strong, right?

2010-03-29T05:42:00.000-07:00

You'll never know how much hurt you've brought to me. Though I have to accept the fact that you're not mine anymore, promise me that you'll be there for me, forever. Just like how we were before..

Baby, I'm sorry for whatever I've done/said to you. Really sorry. Forgive me.. ):

2010-03-14T12:09:00.001-07:00

Days by days, I'm missing you. Missed those happy moments we spent together, once before. I know that you're no longer belonged to me anymore. You belong to someone now. All I could do it's just standing by your side and watch you. Now that everything have ended, I should give you all my blessing. Baby, I really miss you. Not only you, your everything.

2010-03-12T01:16:00.000-08:00

After all that’s said and done, I still think you’re amazing. I still cherish every moment I ever spent with you and every smile you brought to my face. I’ll forever be thankful that someone like you was brought into my life, even if it had to be taken away too soon. See, you were my miracle, you were my fairytale I got to live.

I am learning how to be alone without being lonely, learning how to be lonely without losing my mind. Baby, I really missed those happy moments we had spent together. How I wished that she wasn't part of everything. I miss you, Jasper Sim.

2010-02-03T11:53:00.000-08:00

我舍不得, 可是时间回不去了..

2010-02-02T08:36:00.000-08:00

Somehow, I`m starting to think that Luo Zhi Xiang is handsome! ;woot LOL. Okay, I know it`s very random of me posting this, but seriously, he`s damn shuai. ;x

Just came back from work. Woke up at 1plus in the afternoon. Don`t know why do I still feel tired, even after so many hours of sleep! ;sigh Maybe do too much already, that`s why tired. LOLOL. :x

Online on Audition. Played with Yijie kor at his fam channel. Play untill Jasper darling online, then went to prepare for work. Sigh. My life seems so boring. Lol. After preparing, went down to buy lunch, then headed to work. Knocked off early today, because sales was good. :)

Home sweet home. Played with Jasper darling and texted him. Feel so happy to have such a good darling! ;luv Nothing much to blog already. Maybe I`ll blog picture`s of myself tomorrow, if I have time to zilian! :D

2010-02-01T12:24:00.001-08:00

Well, just finished doing my blogskin. Guess I`d private my blog for now on. As everybody know what`s going on now. I think it`s the best that I keep it private ba. :)

Anyway, I had a good chat with Jasper darling just now. He`s really someone that I can go to when I need a listening ear. I`m not trying to say those that were there for me before aren`t good listening ears. Is just that I don`t know why/how come I`d just open up my feelings to him without hesitating. (Whatever it`s spells)

And yeah. Recently, I have alot of things that kept stressing me constantly. Really have no idea of what am I suppose to do next/now.

I must admit that one of the problem that I`m stressing about is NS Enlistment. I seriously very scared/afriad to go into NS. If you ask me why, I only can tell you that I don`t wanna be alone. But that`s not the main reason. It`s because I`m afriad.. What if I can`t cope everything that I have to do in there? What if I go in and never come out one day? There`s alot of "what if" on my mind each and everytime when I think about it.

Don`t expect me to not think about it. I seriously can`t. By seeing the days are drawing closer to the Registration date, I really very scared. Though I`ve already applied ITE course, but I might not get into it too. And what if I don`t get into any course/school, I guess that`s the only way I have go... Sigh. I don`t wanna go in NS leh! :(

Another thing that is bothering me was money. Yeah. Money. I find that Giordano is getting from bad to worse. I don`t know why, but seriously, it`s really making me feel like quitting. (Which I don`t want)

1st is because of my stupid incharge. I seriously don`t know how long more can I stand her. Though she didn`t give me a big push on work, but I still can feel that presure that she`s giving. -.- Sales is what she care about. Hitting the monthly target is a must for every retail shops, I know. But I don`t even get a single cent even if our shop hit target anot. Why should I help? Right?

2nd is because of my in-grown toe nail. She`s such a bitch infront of my Area Manager. She can actually act like she don`t know that I`m wearing slippers for work, from the day she ws transfered over to our shop. Made me got scolded like for nothing. -.- What the fuck lor.

There`s still more to it. But I`m lazy to list out everything. So much things that I have to stress over with. I find that life is meaningless to me now. All I do everyday is work, play, eat, drink. And thinking about my dream to have a shop of my own seems impossible. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Why am I not as rich as the richest man in the world? :( If I am, I wouldn`t have think and stress so much about. ;cry!

Last but not listed. Happy Birthday Denise! ;duh

2010-01-19T09:50:00.000-08:00

Many things came across my mind out of sudden.

I must understand that life is always full of ups & downs, people come & go, misunderstanding all around. I remember each and everything people once taught me, but still I choose to go on my own ways.

I`ve been facing all those consequence eversince I choose to go on my own ways.
I remember I`ll always received long text messages from quite a number of my friends when I`m upset or when something happened, I really appreciate it but I`ve no idea how many are still there for me until now.

I`m in a good relation with almost every different group of my friends around me, but I knew things started to change long ago for some group even when it seems to stay.

I`ve no idea how people or my once close friends think of me now, but I know time passed human changed. I can`t change the point of view of anyone anyway.

As long as I know I`ll always have people there for me, I`m satisfied. Don`t wanna make things too complicated for myself or anyone else, so I shall just let it be..

我走以后你现在的生活会不会也偶尔想起我那所谓的以后还是朋友如何去做
你记得我还是已经忘记谁为谁放

2010-01-17T14:49:00.000-08:00

No matter what I do, no one likes me.
This world is so unfair.
If you`ve ever done anything bad, everyone will forever label you as the bad person!

2010-01-12T10:52:00.000-08:00

I seiously don`t know what I am in your eyes anymore. Whatever it is, I`m always the last to know, or I won`t even be able to know. Even when you`re going overseas, you don`t even give a damn to text me a message saying that you`re going overseas or something. You`d rather tell others then me. This is you!

Always telling me how important am I to you whenever I did something for you, but right after that second, you`ve change to another person, just like a stranger to me. Why am I so dumb and stupid to help you in all this, when you don`t even give a fucking damn about it?

I cared so much about you and yet I get all this in return. Why do I even tag hearts and buy acash items for you? All this that I`ve done for you, I only ask for you to return in audi. But never..

I did so much for you is just to draw our gap closer. But all you did was, heck care. Alt-f4 at me. -.- All this I`ve already swallowed down my throat. How much more you want me to take? :(

I may seems like I don`t care/mind, but deep inside my heart, whatever you`ve done to me, hurts me alot ye. Sometimes I really wanna give up on our brother-ship. But I can`t bring myself to do so..

Maybe it`s really time for me to let things go and start a new fresh soon. After Edelweiss Ring, I`m gonna go back on my guy account, which I don`t know am I able to get used to it.

But no matter how hard it will take for me to get used to everything, I`ll still have to try.. Because you`re no longer the one I`m close with, no longer the one I knew and I must remind myself constantly that you`re really gone this time..

2010-01-11T08:46:00.000-08:00

Nothing much about today. Hope those that did not get good results for Olevel`s will take it easy... Did not attend class again, as usual. But today it`s different! I was working, and work untill 6pm. So tired after working.

Anyway, after work I went for a hair cut @ Commonwealth. Heehee! I kinda like my current hair cut now! Because I can style my hair like last time already! YAHOO!

Went home and my mother started kpkb already. -.- Wtf. Nehmind. Watched Hi, My Sweetheart Eps, 11. Not too bad. There was a part that almost made me cry was...
When Bao Zhu was counting down while waiting for Da Lang. It goes like this...

5 ~ 4 ~ 3 ~ 2 ~ 1 ~ ... 你没有迟到.. 是我迟到了..

Okay, shall not high about the show already. I`m going back to audi to chiong my fam points and my couple points ! 1.5k more to Love Party!

Right now giving me a big headache is my stupid toe! So long already and yet it`s not healing at all! Very pain ye! Everyday go work, I will like try to hide my toe from letting people see lor. Because really very jialat ye.

2010-01-10T08:56:00.001-08:00

3 years back, I`m like this..
How you would chance upon me, in this most beautiful moment.
For this, I have prayed to the heavens for 500 years.

Prayed for our earthly fate.
The heavens destined me as a tree, rooted aside the road of which you will walk.

In the sunlight, flowers abloom.
Each bloom, the hope of my past lives..

As you draw near, listen carefully...
Those shivering leaves are the fervor of my anticipation.

And as you finally walk passed disregardingly, behind you there falls.

Friend, those aren`t flower petals.
It is my withered heart...

2010-01-07T11:23:00.001-08:00

如何让你遇见我
在这最美丽的时刻
为这, 我已在佛前求了500年..

求祂让我们结一段塵缘
佛於是把我化作一棵树
张在你必經的路旁
阳光下慎重的闓满了花..

朵朵都是我前世的盼望
當你走迳請你细听..

那顫抖的葉是我等待的热情
而當你终于無視的走過
在你身後落了一地的..

朋友啊, 那不是花瓣
是我凋零的心..

2010-01-06T07:34:00.000-08:00

Happy belated 2010 year to everyone! Did not have the mood to blog last few days. Was busy with audition and somethings are bothering me, recently. :( Okay, whatever it is, hope 2010 would be a better year. Goodbye 2009, and I`m gonna be 1 year older soon.

Recently have been thinking about, why don`t I have any gf at all, after 17 years of my life, when its already a common thing to every teenagers like me? What`s the big problem about it ye? I know this is not something important, but just wondering, why I`ve never heard of anybody fall for me, for ONCE?

Not even once ye, in my 17 years life. In some of my friends eyes, I looks like those that have loads of gf`s. Yes, loads of gf`s, but not that gf. -.- Wtp lor. :( Sigh.. I wonder when will I ever have a gf in my life...

不管我怎么样, 都不会有人喜欢我.
十七年了耶! 我还没个女朋友.
为什么?!
我觉得这世界好不公平.
如果你做过错事, 人家就会一辈子认定你是坏人..

2009-12-30T10:55:00.001-08:00

Tomorrow is the last day of 2009 already. ;sigh
Goodbye 2009, Welcome 2010.

2009-12-28T11:58:00.000-08:00

Currently @ Weizheng's house now, with Qihui. And right now the time is 4am!
This is my 1st time I stay uptill so late @ her house. :D
Both of them are now sleeping like some pig and I'm all alone, using the laptop. ;lone

Well, nothing special that I wanna highlight on. Just got a new phone, yesterday.
Laughs! I bought it because its cheap and nice. ;x
Scold me cheap or whatever you want. I don't very a flying fucks about it. :@

My new phone model is Nokia 5230! Upgraded my line, so I don't have to pay that much.
It cost me about $60+ only. Suppose to be @ $28 one lor!
But sway sway when I wanna get it, the promotion just ended, and price up to $60+. ;cry

And yeah. I did something that I've never done it before in my life. Guess what isit?
I bought a pair of pants for my mother yesterday. Actually is not exactly I wanted to buy it.
Its because the pants was wrongly altered, and its under my name. So decided to buy it for my mum.
I know I'm not a good boy, but at least I did something nice okay! >.<

Okay. Crapped too much already. I shall end everything here. ;mua

2009-12-21T06:00:00.000-08:00

Hi, I'm back from tm's chalet for 3days already. Lol.
Didn't have the time to update my blog is was because I'm have food poisoning! ;lone
Those who hate me, please go ahead and laugh. HA - HA - HA ~

Yesterday, went to Commonwealth's Clinic, with my sister. I swear vomitting is torturing lor! Almost fainted, while walking there. ;hurt
Got myself 1 day mc, but I went to work today. Lolol. But, I was late like, What the poop. -.-

As for today, work was fucking pissing me off! Promote the promotion to customer, no reply or just walk away. -.- I was like pointing middle finger behind them lor. Cb, think I wanna serve them meh? I can always go home and sleep like a pig! Don't have to come and see their COW faces! _l_

Okay. Shall not kp so much about today. Anyway, I got a new hair cut.
HAHAHA! Like WOW. Finally cut my DAMN long hair. ^__^
Hope its nice. >.< Because I find it rather, short. :(

And yeah! Now is picture time! Please wait for the picture's to load. Because there's quite a number of them. :O

DAY 1

DAY 2

DAY 3

2009-12-10T09:24:00.001-08:00

‧ Recently, I've nothing to update about
‧ Went out with Ivy and Qihui today
‧ Marina Square, Suntec and Bugis!
‧ Had pasta @ Marina Square FoodCourt and it was nice
‧ Shop shop, buy buy, and walk walk
‧ Dinner @ Bugis Junction's FoodCourt
‧ Back to Suntec and went to the arcade
‧ Cam-whore and after that went home
‧ Work later on, again..

2009-11-28T10:52:00.001-08:00

To watch the girl I love, slowly fade away from me.
To hold her words ripped out my hands and I can't do anything about it.
Sacraficed so much, and isn't still wonderful.
It seems to be so hurt, when the girl I gave everything to,
looks at me like I'm nothing.
Remembering that every part of the day I spent thinking of her,
will be a day filled with tears and many un-answered questions..

2009-11-24T07:23:00.000-08:00

Letting go of things I held close. My tears have all dried, from the hurt and the pain.
Because from the time you've lied, it has become hard to even keep sane. All I do is think of you..

2009-11-17T07:48:00.000-08:00

I hate it when I felt so empty and lost.
I hate it when things doesn't turn out the right way.
Is like you're there, but not knowing what to say.
I hate the fact that I can't hate a single thing about you,
even after all that has been said and done.
I hate the fact that I'm still thinking about you.
I hate it when I can't ask for your return.
I hate the fact that I still love you, even after you're gone...

2009-11-15T04:35:00.001-08:00

你不懂我的那些憔悴,
是你永远不曾过的体会.
最后的痛苦是手放开..

I'm always pretending I'm happy and fine. I'm always trying to satisfied you, giving you what I can. And what I get back in return is this. Do you think its fair to me?

Have you ever put yourself in my shoe and think about it? Does this have to continue? How long does this last? I really want to see what am I to you. Everything, I'll never understand.

Sometimes, I've felt cheated, left out and even felt that the world is leaving me behind. Catching up seemed impossible..

Its you who will always be there for me. Whenever I'm down, you will always be there to cheer me up no matter how. Its you who always let me feel so comfortable and lively. Whenever you are always with me, I feel comfortable and feel so free from troubles. Its you who let me feel so hurt now. Whatever you've promised me are all fake.

I always wanna talk things out with you. Clarifying every single thing about us with you, but I have no courage. I'm afraid of you ignoring me even more. I'm afraid of the answers, not I want.

"Let it go", thats what I always hear around me. But what I always tell them is I cant..Its because you're too hard to let go. If I could, I've already given up long ago.

Can you understand what I'm thinking? I don't know how to express out what I'm feeling and thinking, cause I've already loss of words. Days by days, I'm missing our pass.. I can't forget what is no longer the same..

2009-11-08T08:28:00.001-08:00

YAY! I'm finally 17 year old already! I wanna thank those who wished me and celebrated with me yesterday. Thank you! ;luv

I'm lazy to recall everything again. So I'll let the picture's do the talking. I'll edit this post when I'm free. ;duh

2009-11-05T06:12:00.000-08:00

You're just like a star in the sky.
Always so beautiful to look at.
Whenever i want to stretch my hand out for you,
it always turn out that i'm just stretching my hand out for the air.
Because, you're too far away from me.
Too far away that it's impossible to grab hold of you...

2009-11-02T08:37:00.001-08:00

Today is my Audition fam birthday! Happy birthday trademark! Finially we're 1 year old already! ;luv! Actually, I have nothing to blog about. I just feel like updating. .__.

Anyway, today work morning shift and I'm seriously gonna break down in no time. ;sob! But its okay! 15nov will be the last day of everything. I shall ''ren'', for the sake of trademark's chalet! ;wild!

Today Qh came to find me too. Went for lunch at food court and after that headed to her shop. Lol. I tried 3 tops, but ended up not buying. LOLOL! But overall, the grey and the white top is nice. Maybe gonna get it! ;hoho!

Oh ya! I went to have hair-cut too. Diao! My fringe not straight anymore. ;sob! Maybe rebonding soon. ;duh!

Kimiko <3 January

5 more days..

2009-11-01T10:30:00.000-08:00

Yay! Today is me and Sohwynn's 3 year anniversary! Haha! Ya, actually thinking of how we met was quite interesting too. :x Our first met was in Audition. Lol. If you wanna know more about what happen, ask me! Don't ask him. He cannot remember one! :)

And who say you're always the bad one. I always praise you to others leh! Say what, you treat me very good and so.. (at times only!) Sometimes talk to you in audition uh, can really piss me off. But in the end, I choose to give in. I don't know why, but just can't bear to angry with you lor. :o I know I'm not the best in your heart. But to me, you're someone that I don't wanna lose.

Thank you for being a brother of mine. Thank you for coupling me in Audition, even when my skills is not as good as you. Thank you for the wedding party and love party. Thank you for those Audition memorise that you gave me. I really miss those time when we were very close.. :(

Anyway, just want you to know, no matter what happen, I'll be there for you! And all I ask for is just a little bit more of your care and concern..

6 more days ...

2009-10-25T12:28:00.001-07:00

It's the root of love that's lacking in me.
Plucked the root of love out of me, yet I still couldnt control all these emotions that is within me.
My heart is the seed that made all these happend, that made all these beyond my control.
No matter how many root of love I've plucked out, the root will still grow again and again.
Because it's the seed that matters ....

2009-10-20T11:49:00.001-07:00

Hi readers, I'm back! ^__^ v And I shall update a little of this whole week. :)

Anyway, yesterday did not went to school, because my teacher went overseas! ;luv! Therefore, I met Denise and Anna at Clementi for lunch first and aftermath headed to Aloha lan.

Was supposed to try out the new lan in the new mall, but ended up at Aloha because that lan was packed! :@!

Well, as usual! We played fam battle there too and we only played 1 round of fam battle. -.- Waited for like more then 15mins, and we only played 1 round. Joke hor!? :D Never mind ~

Slacked all the way there and played couple compe there too. Sad to say that the one playing is not my darling January, but my dearest kor. ;duh! And both of us managed to reach the last 3 rd round, but still lost.. :(

Stupid lor. Keep giving shit songs, how to fucking chain leh? -.- Sigh. Heart medal seems so near, yet so far. ;sob! Can't wait to get the Heart medal lor! Though its only 24hours..

After that cab home with them...

And for today, worked half-morning at West Mall. Nothing much about today also. Just that some stupid things happen when I reached home and found out. -.- And have to go back and return.

Oh yeah! I bought contact lens as well! ;luv! Finally got contact lens lor. -.- Waited for so long can! ~ And yeah. 2 pairs of contact lens cost $28 each? Cheap? LOL. I don't think so. ;x Its for 1month. ;lala!

Some picture's I took today. And proud to say that I did not edit them! ;duh! This is how I look like when I'm at home. :@ See for yourself! ^__^

2009-10-17T12:34:00.001-07:00

Sigh! I have got so much to say, but I don't know how to express them through words.. Seriously, I hate staying at home whenever my family members are home.

Somehow .. I'd rather if I'm not born in this fucking family. How I wish I'm born in a REALLY rich family. Than I can quit school straight away, and start my own business!

But well ... I can dream about it, but it'll never come true! :)

Recently, my temper is getting from bad to worse. Just about small things, I can get so angry and raise my voice. -.- Sometimes, I really can't stand my sister and father. Their the ones that I seriously hate them alot!

Keep kp whenever I play audition! I seriously hate it lor. What does it got to do to them, when I play audi? So what if I bang my ctrl very loud? Work for the whole fucking day, and when I finally can play audi, they start to bark!

How would you guys feel, if your family members are like that? Can't even play even after working a full-shift! Really don't feel like staying in this home anymore lor. How I wish I've got somewhere to go and don't come back!

Yesterday, I quearlled with that bitch because of a computer. I don't know what's the big idea of creating 2 different acc in 1 computer!? Why can I just use the main one? When I'm only playing auiditon? Why must seperate? Not like I will fucking go see her folders right? Ccb.

Everytime she needs to use my camara, I lend it to her. But when I wanna lend things from her, her jiaowei jitao is alot one lor. Say what I always use her things, then I never lend her my things. -.- Wtf la hor! _l_

Quearlled with her about this, and I fucking hate my father! Such a bastard la hor! You know what? He punch me on my face, just because I shouted. I'll fucking hate him for that! I'll never forget this punch. I'm seriously gonna make him pay for this. And my cheeck still hurts when I touch it lor.

Please fucking don't talk to me! Not enough money to give me already, yet he still wanna buy what 4D, Toto, etc. Still say I'm the one spending his money? Fuck, I tell you! _l_

Ever since I started working, he keep asking me to use my own pay to pay things for myself. EVEN DAILY ALLOWANCE ALSO! Please la? Is he plaint stupid or just dumb? $500+ pay every month is never enough for someone like me, okay!

Sigh.... So many things happen this week. I seriously don't wanna stay at home during my off days lor. And if I could, I don't wanna go home..

Anybody wanna find me out on weekends and during my off days? All of a sudden, I miss my secondary school life and my classmates.. ;lone

2009-10-10T13:06:00.001-07:00

你不能说我没有爱过, 说我没等过难过.
我也想说, 也许能重来我却还是沉默.
你说你还在, 一分一秒也没走开.
我想留在这里可是这一切已太晚
我不能再像从前一样为我们的明天疯狂.
我难过可是我说不出口 , 过去的一切该怎么放开 ???

2009-10-04T13:16:00.001-07:00

Hello people! I'm back in action! ;duh! Anyway, I shall post about friday and saturday. This week is a boring week! ;sob!

On friday, Qh and I was suppose to go for class bbq. But in the, it was canceled, because none of my ex-classmates reply wheater they wanna go or not, as it was a last min plan. Lol. -.-

So! Instead of going for bbq, Qh decided to go Illuma's lan! We asked Denise to go as well. ;duh!

So, meet up with Denise at Bugis Mrt Station at 6plus? Lol. After we met Denise, went over to the Wanton Mee shop to have dinner. Sigh! Why they don't have Wanton without pork one! ;sob! I wanna eat Wanton lor! ;cry!

After eating, headed to Illuma's lan. The place was not bad. I super love their screen! Its about my tv width! ;luv! But the keyboard there, seriously need time to get used to it. Keep missing and getting cools lor! ;sob! But overall, its not bad. Because no kpkb people there and no losers! :)

Well, after lan-gaming, went to slack at mac and had some food too and went over to the arcade. Played Mario Car game and that Jcude thingy. Its damn fun! Somemore got Haruharu song! ;lub!

After playing, and we realised that the last train have left! So we intend to take a cab. But while waiting for cab, 33 came. But Denise have not got a cab, so we pull Denise along with us to take 33 and she took cab back from Dover. :)

Reached home, tagged hearts with Desmond, my audi kor. Tagged untill 6am and went to sleep.

On saturday, went to Qh house in the morning to meet her and Wz. After that bus to Clementi Central and meet Denise. Headed to the market to have our breakfast. Than went over to Aloha.

Started Fam battle at about 3pm. Was being accused for hacking in fam battle. Zzzz. Don't understand what's with those losers brains lor. We didn't even relog or lagged during the battle, yet we're accused of hacking!? Can't they freaking open their big eyes to see?! We're at lanshop! How to fucking hack? Madness! If they can't afford to lose, whyy open fam battle room? To create trouble? Or make them more ''famous''?

Whatever isit, if you guys still think we hack, then be it! No prove don't talk! ;wild!

After lan, went over the grandfather house to have steamboat. After eating went back home and tag hearts with Desmond. And lastly! This kor of mine sleep alot! He can sleep from 5am till 8pm! This is madness okay! 15hours of sleep lor! :x

Anyway, sorry Wynney brother! I was in audition that's why didn't reply your msn. Don't angry okay? ;sob Love die January! ;luv! :D

2009-09-29T09:25:00.001-07:00

Just got home from work. Today was super tiring! As I slept at 4am last night.

Woke up at 11:30pm and went to prepare for work. Left house at 12:30pm. Bought Mac and went up to shop and eat.

Heard that my incharge was late and open shop at 12plus. Lol. Luckily sales was not bad, after I sign in! :) If not his mood would be worse. :x

During break time, recevied a sms from Qihui, saying that the contact lens we ordered, the person left out mine! Which is the black one! _l_ Nb. Out of all, left out mine. -.-

Today close shop super late, thanks to overall con. And I finally cleared my reservation! ^^ Bought 2 bottoms! :D

Okay, I think that's all about today. I've got nothing to update about. Tomorrow would be at OGA. Sighhhhhhh..

PS:// And for the passby, please get a life la. Which word of mine telling you that I'm showing off with my Audition lvl? _l_ Like I've said many times, not happy come only. Seriously get a life la! -.- Zzzzzz..

2009-09-28T08:26:00.001-07:00

Just came back from school. School was super boring lor! Shouldn't have go today. :\ Waste time, waste transport fee and somemore the train was crowded like mad! ;wild

Anyway, tomorrow will be working afternoon shift. And for Wednesday will be working at OGA, at Bugis there. Sian lor! -.- Go untill there. Also not familar with the place. ;cry!

Shall update again when I'm free. I wanna make new skin!! :(

2009-09-27T12:19:00.001-07:00

Lol. I know my blog is damn dead. I seriously don't know what to update about. Its seems like I've lost interest in blogging already. :(
This few days is freaking boring for me. Everyday I'm doing the same thing, other than working..

Anyway, on friday evening, went to meet up with Wilson, Alvin, Rachel and Zann at Plaza Sing for dinner. And I was late, so they went in Jcude first. Saw Desmond there too. Omg, he's freaking tall. T.T

After Jcube, went for dinner. Pardon me for not stating where we eat at, because I can't remember what's the name of the place. Its was freaking crowded. Waited like 45mins to settle down.

Well, I have to say that the food there was nice. Sad to say that I did not bring my cam along. If not I can blog pictures. :\

After eating, Wilson, Alvin and Rachel wanna rush back to era, so they left first, while Zann and I went train home.

On saturday, as usual, went era in the morning. It was era boss birthday as well. So era people decided to celebrate for him. Didn't get to see him, cause he was in a rush. -.- At about 5-6plus, Leyi and Shuzhen came too. Era the whole day, and went off at 11pm.

Yeah.. That's about it. Nothing much I wanna update already. Shall update again soon. :)

2009-09-12T10:11:00.001-07:00

Hi everybody, I'm back from Era! Currently webcaming with my brother. Lolol. He look damn freaking fair! :x I ss down already! :D

Anyway, today was one of my happy day in era, after so many unhappy things happen. Woke up early today and went back to shop to pass my colleague something and pay the shortage of cash for yesterday. $2.50 just fly like that. Sigh. I can play 1 hour of era lor. :(

After everything, went off and bus to Tiong Bahru. Was supposed to go Clementi's lan after going to shop. But while bus-ing to Tiong Bahru, didn't have the mood to train back to Clementi area. So decided to train down to Bedok and went era! :D

During the train journey, there's this old uncle sitting infront of me playing with his fake tooth. -.- Keep pushing it in and out. Like very fun like that. Than I was thinking, if my father does that, I think I will laugh untill like mad! :x

Reached Bedok inter at about 12plus. Went to have my first meal of the day at Bedok interchange's food centre. Had duck noodles, as usual. Lolol. After that bus to era.

When I reached era, less than 10 comps were on and less then 20 people were there. :( Machaim era gonna close down sia. *(Which I don't want this to happen!)* Bought channel there and played all the way.

Chiong-ing my brother's exp. I swear its freaking slow, even when I used the x2 exp. And yay! Finally can licence already! Kept failing at first. Than went to change comp to the full screen comp after the 5try, I managed to pass! Was freaking happy! I thought this will never happen lor!

Lol. I think I sound abit suaku la. But its something that I should happy about. I can't chance well for 8key and that song can't even chain a single shit. -.- But end up, I got a x6. Yeah. I don't have the replay to show you guys, than I think you guys must be thinking I asked someone else to clear it for me. But its okay! I know I did it can le! :)

Not only this that I was happy for the whole day. Today I think I'm somehow of on form or something, I did a satisfied 188 score! Its ever rare okay! Lol. :x And we had fam battle too. Only played 2 rounds. -.-

And yeah! Today Rachel very kind! She treat me Ice Lemon Tea. Wanted to return her the money, but she keep saying she bought the ice cream and got free drinks. -.- (As if I will believe lor!) Next time its my turn to treat her. :)

Went home at about 10pm. Webcam with brother than this Anna called and told me that she won the couple compe! :( Grats anyway. I shall get mine soon! Brother, I also want it leh!! :\

Anna's and Denise couple compe!

Me and my brother's couple info. January is him, -KIMIKO is me.

My ever rare 188 score! Lolol!

2009-09-11T09:56:00.001-07:00

Finally its end of this week already! Today's shift was afternoon, same as yesterday. Super tired.
Packed the storeroom alone, and it was super clean! Thanks to me! :D
Sales was not bad today. And guess who I saw today!?
Alcinda Lee!! Lol. She's working at Great World too! And her shop is right beside mine only!
Hmm. Worked there for like 3 months already, untill today than I saw her. :\

2009-09-09T12:03:00.000-07:00

Just finish editing my new blogskin. Somehow I prefer this skin then the previous one. >.<
Nothing much to update about, but I've got a screenshots to show you people!
Miss die my brother!! :(

Happy Birthday Anna!

2009-08-26T09:58:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not updating this few days. Was busy with work and Audition.

Worked full shift today, and I swear it was super tired! Because I slept last night. Heehee. While working, my mind just can't stop thinking of Audition. Don't know why. Lol. Seriously, I super addicted! :D

Hmm.. Actually I have nothing to update about, recently. Maybe will be updating more on friday and saturday. :D Anyway, now have already passed 12am, and its Anna's Birthday! Let me sing birthday song for her here! Heeeeheeeeeee! :P

Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you!
Happy birthday to Anna, happy birthday to you!

Don't say I not good hor! Somemore I bought acash, just to mega you lor! :O

What a boring weekend I had!

2009-08-22T12:13:00.000-07:00

Surprisingly, I did not go era today, because everybody couldn't make it. T.T

Slept untill 1plus, I guess? Woke up from Qihui's and Denise's phone call. Asking me to wake up for fam channel. :(

Slept quite late last night, I suppose? Lolol. Played fam channel for awhile, after Qihui gone for work, went to train couple dance with Denise. Seirously, my heart was feeling itchy while I was playing audition. You know why? Because I'm not at era! :(

Miss era's computer, miss era's keyboard, miss era's chair and miss everything there! Playing at home seirously its making me go mad! Madness! Lol. Learn from Inez de. :x

Slacked through-out the whole day. Super bored today! I wanna go era soon! :(

What a boring saturday I had man! _l_

Start a new refresh.

2009-08-21T12:01:00.001-07:00

Changed blogger account. Won't be using the previous one again. Link me if you want. :)

Today was a tiring day for me, as I slept quite late last night. :O

Woke up late and I was slightly late for work today. :( Knocked off from work at 1pm and headed straight home to prepare myself to go out with Qihui and Ivy later on. Gonna watch the movie, "Where got ghost". Lol. *Can't imagine I watch movie hor?* :D

Bought tickets from Iluma than went to had Long John Silver. Was rather pissed off with that girl service. Her service sucks like fuck you, I tell you! Keep repeating my order and she served us very slow lor. -.- Feel like scolding her and complainting to her incharge. Spoil my mood sia. Zzz.

After eating, went to Bugis Street to shop and bought 2 bottoms! :D Finally I'm shopping for my clothes lor. -.- Went to Bugis Junction shop for awhile then went to the lanshop, awhile waiting for the movie.

Played for 30mins, after that went back to Iluma for the movie. The movie was okay actually. Laugh alot also. Lol. After the movie, went to had some food and went to Suntec's arcarde. As usual, cam-whore alot there. Finally got picture's to update le. Heehee! ^^. Went home after that.

I guess tomorrow I'll be staying at home for the whole day. :\ Nobody's going era tomorrow. :( Shall rest for the whole day then. And I think I should get a hair-cut soon. My hair is so thick and long now. :( Payday hurry come! :O